Denial within Addiction

Denial is the part of our disease that tells us we don't have a disease. When we are in denial, we are unable to see the reality of our addiction. We minimize its effect. We blame others, citing the too-high expectations of families, friends, and employers. We compare ourselves with other addicts whose addiction seems "worse" than our own. We may blame one particular drug. If we have been abstinent from drugs for some time, we might compare the current manifestation of our addiction with our drug use, rationalizing that nothing we do today could possibly be as bad as that was! One of the easiest ways to tell that we are in denial is when we find ourselves giving plausible but untrue reasons for our behavior.

Have I given Plausible but untrue reasons for my behavior? What have they been?

Throughout my past; during the period where my addiction was highly active I had given plausible yet untrue reasons for my behavior! Yet I wasn't only constantly giving these reasons to others within close surroundings of me, I was giving these plausible & untrue reasons to myself which in reality I  seriously became to believe my own thoughts & lies I was telling in attempt to cover up/get my out of something I didn't feel comfortable in doing!

 

The plausible yet obviously untrue thing I used to constantly tell & honestly believed myself was; I seriously couldn't have an addiction or be addicted to drugs if I was using as well as selling/dealing my beloved poison of choice; Methamphetamines because I had great "self-control" as I had to think of others & their wants/needs for the drugs in order to make the money I needed to pay back what I owed for the quantity of Methamphetamines I had originally picked up. Which, theoretically embedded in my mind; I am not paying for my usage of Methamphetamines, Junkies are!! Therefor, I have gained absolutely no form of addiction! Also, along with the fact I defiantly wasn't going out of my way to "pick up/score" as I was friends with my dealer prior to taking on the job of being a dealer selling Methamphetamines meaning we were just "catching up" there were just drugs there... Conveniently!  

Denial: Early Recovery

Denial is a safety net for everyone. We deny our problems when we feel overwhelmed by what is required to resolve them; we deny that we are mortal when we fear the death that is the only certainty we all share. We deny that we are facing situations that do not allow us to continue to do what we want, no matter what that may be. Denial is a construct that is firmly embedded into our culture from birth through death. It is a construct created to protect us from harsh realities that we would rather not face. Denial can be seen as an ego defense that shelters the person from truth they feel inadequate to deal with.

As a concept used in treatment of addictive disorders, it was popularly coined in the early-to-mid 1980s when treatment became more widespread and the conversation about addiction became more open. It was used then to describe the denial of an addict and the severity of their drug/alcohol use and problems surrounding it.

The overuse of the word is apparent to all who hear it nearly 30 years later. We know all the slogans and catch phrases created to make it more widespread and socially acceptable to be “in denial.” However, as an ego defense, its use has only increased, not diminished over time.

Denial in the field of addictions’ treatment means that the addict is going to minimize and decentralize their addiction by looking at it as everyone else’s problem, as blaming those around him for his use and abuse of substances, as negotiating to lessen the impact of his abuse and use of substances, and to attempt to protect himself from the ultimate treachery of having to face life without the only measure of comfort he has known, that of using and abusing those same substances. While it is apparent to everyone around him that his addiction is spiraling out of control, he will continue to defend it with whatever weapons he may possess. The sharpest tool in his kit at this juncture may well be his denial of the problems his addiction are creating for him and the social environment he inhabits. Therefore, as trite as the word may be in today’s vernacular, it is important to remember the impact the addict finds in using this old weapon for his seeming survival.